Something I just need to get off my chest... - Eternal Allegiance

DoobyDoo · 10-22-2002, 05:24 AM

I dunno if this really belongs in GD, but i need everyone to see this, especially the last paragraph... This is probably the most heartfelt message i've ever written, so please just read it.

Have any of you had a friend, or a lover, which you thought you really knew but then something happens to you and you realise you never really did? Since I got sick, I’ve realised a heck of a lot about my friends and myself. I realised that putting others before yourself is a good thing, but also at the same time it can be a bad thing because it gives windows of opportunities for them to throw it right back in your face. You can do or say anything to give that person what you think is a better life, but in the back of your mind you always subconsciously thought that they’d rise above what you said and not sink below it. People you thought loved you back in the depth and the way you loved them in return turn out to not feel anywhere near the way you’d thought for months.

People get boyfriends and girlfriends, and when you need them the most they ignore you to get on with their own love life. They tell you how brave you are for being hooked up for a machine for hours, how brave you are for knowing that in a couple of years time you might die…. But I realise now the bravest thing of all is to support someone through this, not just sit back, avoid the topic and hope it goes away. The people I admire are the people who are sitting with me while I go through this, the people who don’t give up on me however much I rant and rave at them, because I’m grumpy and in hospital. Those are the people I think are brave, not me. I say this because I wouldn’t want to watch any of my friends go through kidney failure, it’s probably not the nicest thing to see.

I suppose what I’m trying to say is, I thank everyone that is supporting me 100% through this really tough time and for those that are avoiding me, given up on me, patronising me – whether you’re on this board, at uni, or a friend – ok just whoever you are…. I don’t need your shit.

André_ea · 10-22-2002, 05:30 AM

That was indeed a really moving and touching post and due to that fact that i know u quite well i absolutely know what u are talking about here.
I know its hard for u right nwo and u are having several problems at teh same time right now but u can be sure that theer will always be people u can rely on in this time and whenever u want to talk, u can count on me.
May my best wishes be with u........

PastyHusty · 10-22-2002, 05:37 AM

I hope you always know that I'm here to support you through any tough times you have Suzy.

You don't deserve to be going through this at all.

If you wanna talk I should be on ICQ sometime on Friday.

I hope everything works out well for you in the end.

ForeverInLoveWithJus · 10-22-2002, 05:37 AM

Good luck in the future, hope it works out for you.

Jerod · 10-22-2002, 09:25 AM

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Originally posted by Scooby
I dunno if this really belongs in GD, but i need everyone to see this, especially the last paragraph... This is probably the most heartfelt message i've ever written, so please just read it.

Have any of you had a friend, or a lover, which you thought you really knew but then something happens to you and you realise you never really did? Since I got sick, I’ve realised a heck of a lot about my friends and myself. I realised that putting others before yourself is a good thing, but also at the same time it can be a bad thing because it gives windows of opportunities for them to throw it right back in your face. You can do or say anything to give that person what you think is a better life, but in the back of your mind you always subconsciously thought that they’d rise above what you said and not sink below it. People you thought loved you back in the depth and the way you loved them in return turn out to not feel anywhere near the way you’d thought for months.

People get boyfriends and girlfriends, and when you need them the most they ignore you to get on with their own love life. They tell you how brave you are for being hooked up for a machine for hours, how brave you are for knowing that in a couple of years time you might die…. But I realise now the bravest thing of all is to support someone through this, not just sit back, avoid the topic and hope it goes away. The people I admire are the people who are sitting with me while I go through this, the people who don’t give up on me however much I rant and rave at them, because I’m grumpy and in hospital. Those are the people I think are brave, not me. I say this because I wouldn’t want to watch any of my friends go through kidney failure, it’s probably not the nicest thing to see.

I suppose what I’m trying to say is, I thank everyone that is supporting me 100% through this really tough time and for those that are avoiding me, given up on me, patronising me – whether you’re on this board, at uni, or a friend – ok just whoever you are…. I don’t need your shit.

They can't give you a kidney transplant?

Dejonay · 10-22-2002, 09:56 AM

omg i had know idea! im sorry 2 hear what your going through and even though i dont know you that well i will be thinking of u.
De
xxxx

André_ea · 10-22-2002, 10:35 AM

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Originally posted by TwistedFan

They can't give you a kidney transplant?

i hope Suzy doesnt care if i reply on that for her but i talked to her and i guess i can reply on that.

she is on that list but its not easy to get such a transplant, it always takes some time till u finally get one

Jerod · 10-22-2002, 11:01 AM

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Originally posted by Andrew

i hope Suzy doesnt care if i reply on that for her but i talked to her and i guess i can reply on that.

she is on that list but its not easy to get such a transplant, it always takes some time till u finally get one

That sucks.

I wish I was born with two kidneys. I'd donate it if i did.

André_ea · 10-22-2002, 12:40 PM

oh, u were born with just one kidney?

i am sry for that then

even if u donate it, or even if there is a kidney that somebody ca have, doesnt mean that everybody can have it, it needs a special one so that everything works, u know, same blood and stuff

Errick · 10-22-2002, 12:52 PM

Hey Suzy, I am definitely here for you. I know you are going through a very rough time, and you can always count on me to be on MSN (when I'm not avoiding everyone so I can actually get stuff done...lol...damn I get distracted easily...) to talk to ya. Just send me a message, or when you're on, I'll shout you one. I miss talkin' to ya. School's been in the way, but yea, I guess that's 'normal'. Ahh..

*gives you a big hug*

I hope everything turns out the way it should be, and that is with you living a very long and happy life, just the way a special person like you deserves. *another hug*