x Paradoxical II

Hey everyone!

I'd like to start by saying, this has been one hell of a year here at EA. This october was one year for me exactly, and I was pretty excited to still be here. I feel like I've grown so much just being on these forums, and they've taught me alot. Alot of the time, it's been an escape from reality; when I've had troubles, when I've been bored. It was always active and fun here. I've met so many great people that I'll never forget, and I've made alot of friends. I've been lucky to have two amazing admins to keep this place going, and I'm forever greatful Karen and Stinger, because without you, everything i've accomplished online, and here at EA wouldnt really be possible. You've provided an online home for me, and you've made it a better place to stay every day.

Now, getting to the point. I'm going to be taking a pretty long break here, if not a permanent one. No, this is not a pitty thread, or an attention thread, however I feel you all deserve explanation as to why I wont be posting here, or visiting for a while.

As most of you know, my grandmother just died recently. It's been tough worrying about posting music in my thread, or going to do updates, or posting here while going to her house and cleaning stuff out with my family. I feel like, once everything settles through and I get a break with things, everything will hopefully not be back to normal, but to the closest it can possibly be.

Also, school work has become a main thing for me right now. I've gotten two A's and a B, which is great, however, i've also recieved a D in algebra. If I plan on doing track, or any winter/spring sports, I need to get that D to atleast a C-. I admit, I havent been doing homework, and part of that is because the internet is so addicting. Of course, there are also other reasons.

Ovbiously, sports is a main goal for me right now. I just finished a successful season of soccer, however right now track isnt going too well. I need to run more, and get my grades up, which means I wont have much time to even get on the computer unless its for an assignment, which would be strictly for the assignment.

I just want you guys to know, its nothing against you. Its things outside of the internet, and in my life I need to correct and help fix. I need to retrack everything and put the pieces back together until they fit again. And at that point, I will be comming back here to see you all if possible, if I havent moved on or if Im not off to college. I'll miss you guys alot, that is for sure. For the next week, I'll probably post, because we have it off, but after about a week and a half you'll be seeing less and less of me.

I'll cant wait to talk to you all again.. but until they, I'd just like to leave a note to a few special people (if you are not in here, please dont take it personally, my mind is so bad these days).

Karen-- You have been sort of a mother to me during this whole adventure. I will never forget our talks online. Everything. Your an amazing person, seriously. It enchants me that I even got to know you as much as I did. Your words of advice and your strength shines through to me more than anyone and it amazes me how you handel situations. You also have an incredible sence of humor there . Please, If I'm ever on AIM, feel free to IM me. I dont want this to be goodbye, so this isnt going to be a long message. I love you <3

Stinger-- Never did get to know your real name ; but it doesnt matter, your an amazing person all the same. Your posts every day brought laughter into my life. You're sence of humor reminds me of my own dads; and thats what it felt like you were in this online home, my father. You and Karen provided this place for me, and I got to meet all of these great people. I know this isnt good bye, as it wont be with anyone, because I cant let that happen. And when/if I do come back, you will be one of the first I PM .

Mandy-- Or should I say Mrs Kaynette. I think you might of been one of my first friends here. You seriously crack me up and I dont know how you do it. Your an amazing person. Thankyou for the awesome chats, girl. And when/if I come back, you bests pm me .

Jess-- Kelly's sunshine . Without you, I probably wouldnt have this major obsession with Kelly. Like I said I've always loved her, but I never put her into recongnition as much as I should of. You are a sweet heart and an incredibly nice girl. I cant wait to talk to you when/if I come back .

Logan-- Low G . We might of not of been the closest people, but you've always managed to crack me up. You seem like a great person, and its a shame I didnt get to share too many great moments with you. However, I would like to get to you know better when I come back.

Luis-- You are physco! haha you always crack me up. You have this wierd sence of humor that I have come to love <3. I enjoy you. Never lose your sence of humor. And Goodluck with the Marriage, boy!

Trista-- I have been honored to make some of your fine blends, girl haha and its been amazing getting to know you as a person. Good luck with everything, your husband, everything. I love you, girl.

Emma-- My JLo Fanatic. You are an amazing person. Your posts were always kind, and thats what I loved about you. I enjoyed reading every one of them. I'll be sure to ttyl.

( I really cannot think of anyone else. Its getting late and my mind is going blank. Im going to edit this as I remember people. )

Thankyou everyone for always being there, and listening if I complained, ect. I couldnt of asked for a better forum community. You guys will always make it memorable <3.


Love Always <3
Ashlynn

Birgerhar

Hope everything gets better soon. I remember when 2 of my grandparents died within hours. It's a hard time but you'll soon see a new light.

Here's to hoping for a quick return!



Miss ya!

YesJess

LOL I'll miss you babe!!! Come back!

Lemons

Bye.. Im sure most of us will miss you greatly.. good luck btw also, keep your head up.

PapRoach123

*imagines self as father figure*


*points at Karen* She's the brain, I'm just the annoying twat!


I am glad that I was able to make you smile in some way. It wasn't something I expected to hear, cause I generally don't come across as the nicest guy on the block. lol. All the more reason for me to appreciate what you said.

Though I only know you from posts myself, Karen told me once that you're a very cool person to talk to. Good luck on your studies, and dealing with the loss of your grandmother. Maybe we'll see you around some time. Take care!

Wdnesday

Stinger, you know you just used an offensive word in your post?

Ashlynn, you're a sweetheart. I hope that you return feeling better and are able to stick around. We may not get to talk a lot but I'm always on the lookout for your posts. Thanks for the sweet words and take care of yourself.

ForeverInLoveWithJus

Ashlynn... Noooooooooo, This just cant happen! You are such a nice girl and I always enjoy reading all of your posts, you are an amazing person, I hope you do stay with us and come back as I love your posts and I think you are a really special person. I hope things improve for you, you deserve the best! All the best Ashlynn and thanks for the lovely words!

GrgotSlave

Awww, that sucks you're leaving. I think this is a very responsible and mature move you've made. Good luck with everything! I really hope things pick up for you.

NDD

I did the EXACT same thing you're doing when I was a junior in high school. You're definitely making the right decision. If it works out anything like it did for me back then, you'll end up getting better grades and appreciating your life a lot more.

This is a great place to meet people and share ideas, but it has to be secondary to the things in your real life. So anyway...good luck.

Not to mention, after reading this thread, you seem like somebody I think I'd enjoy talking with. So I might send you a PM or something.

PapRoach123