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okay -- this dream made me so unbelievably happy -- you have no idea. i stayed in bed until 3pm in hopes of falling back to sleep for a SECOND and re-living some of the bliss i was in.

so...okay. i have this little teeny crush (okay so it's huge) on heath ledger. anyway - i have never really had a dream about him before -- other than the typical dreams that seem so unrealistic, and when you wake up it leaves no lasting mark other than "oh...guess i had a dream about heath last night. woo-friggin-hoo." (borrowed your cool-ass saying, buddy). and it's not like i sit and obsess over him, either -- i just think he's gorgeous.

last night, this dream felt SO real. it was like actual real life -- i was with this other boy at the time, but had been sort of falling in love with heath over time. so we had this relationship where we shared these tortured looks every time we'd see each other, and then my boyfriend would walk up and say "come on jules." like i'd throw a wistful look at heath as i left, and he'd be sitting there, looking hot, and wanting me. then one day (in the dream) i decided this was NOT what i wanted anymore, and so i ran to heath's house. i ran through the rain, and i got all soaking wet, and the sky was yellow and dark blue and stormy, and the scene in my dream was all misty and dreamy. i walked into his house, and he was sitting on his couch. when he saw me turn the corner, the look on his face was just amazing. he didnt smile, or say anything -- he just looked so hopeful that i was there for good, and so in love with me. i can STILL see it. i just walked over and snuggled down next to him, and he put a blanket around us and just held me. i can STILL feel the way it felt to have my arms around him -- this was SO real.

the coolest part of the dream was, i didn't care that he was heath ledger. he was just a boy i was in love with -- this beautiful boy that i knew i was supposed to be with. aaaahh!! i want to go back to sleep!!!


*****credit for cool-ass saying goes straight to errick. thanks man*****